Thanks people. I truly do appreciate the comments.
I don't know about 'trooper' status. I could easily curl up and give up or crawl inside a bottle and stay there. For me I think my former job brought me in contact with some of those 'Worst case scenarios' and if they can keep keeping on then what the hell have I got to be bitching about? Sure, I can look at the bloke next door, living a life of luxury and think why not me? but then by the same accord I could so easily be in my former client's shoes thinking 'thank christ that's NOT me...'. We all have to play the cards in life that we're dealt (Even if I think the damn deck is rigged sometimes) and as difficult as my hand has proven to be, there's always some poor bastard out there who's position is 100x, 1000x worse. I can't get health coverage either, but if I was living in the U.S., I'd already be dead.
I don't say any of this for a sympathy vote, not at all, but rather to give others a bit of a 'heads up'. Things may seem insurmountable atm, but have a look around and you'll find people in situations you and I can't even fathom.
P.S. I often have people tell me I look like shit and what I want to say is "You want to have a look from this side, 'cos what you can see is a micron of what I'm trying to manage..." but I try to smile and say something like "Yea, not real well. Nothing a bullet wouldn't fix tho... ha ha" and try to make light of it all. But inside I'm thinking "If they only knew..."